Yeah. I have no reason to be here. The only reason why I was on dA is gone, so therefor I have to leave dA.

I'm also leaving because I'm going to kill myself.

I've said this a lot in the past, however this time, I mean it. I don't care if you believe me or not.

This is still goodbye.

I don't really care what you people think, I'm done.

He hates me again, so I'm going to die and take her life with me... Just so the rest of the world can live.

_{Inner anomaly
Where self slaughter is peace
Mutating into a silver whale
Beaching yourself to spite the grail
Turning from fish to frog
Come sleep with my dead God
Calluses bloom on the hand of grace
The snake is sleeping, dreaming of Eve’s face
Two circles, one cycle, a figure of 8
Where the trap is the escape
Cognition is prison, cognition is prison
Birth, life, death, rust
Feed this cruel lust
Cognition is prison, cognition is prison
Goodbye, I hope to see you in another life
Goodnight, I know I’ll see you from a clearer sky
No pain, no blame
Just a naked and loving eye
Goodbye
Love goes on
I hope you all enjoyed your ride
Love goes on
I hope we find ourselves in time
I don’t need your mantra
I don’t need your crosses
I don’t need to hold on
I don’t need to let go
If my eyes are black
You’ll just have to find me
Careful where you look
You’ll end up where I am}

Bye.

It was weird last night. I freaked out, couldn't breathe, couldn't talk, was shaking, etc. My heart was racing so much, I thought I was going to die. So eventually I just lied there in my bed, not breathing and then breathing too heavily... And I passed out beside my phone. I passed out really quickly too. x.x

I think I was going to die!

They probably tried to kill me! I'm sure of it!

Fuck!

Ugh...

If I wasn't doing so poor in one class, I'd be on honour role! >.< ARGH!!!! It's not that that class is hard or anything, I have been stressed lately therefor not really caring about anything.. So I haven't done most of the assignments, but aced all the tests. Just that stupid 5%........ If I had gotten it, I'd be doing really well.

I'm not working hard enough. My marks suck. All in the 80's-90's. >.< I need more in the 90's. Omfg.

I notice the truth more and more when I am numb. It’s like there is no other thing I can focus on. I have to focus on this. I’ve never been sure why, but it has been this way lately. They bother me all the time when I am numb. Maybe it is my shinigami side exposing itself, as gods and half-gods have no need for emotions. Perhaps it is the chip in my brain, slowly killing me each day. I don’t think I’ll ever know why this happens. I can only say whats it is based off of the facts.

->_{The facts tell me it is their fault; therefore I shall treat it that way.}

Eventually, I move on and suddenly I feel too much. It starts with a great depressing low, to an extremely dangerous high, and then finally a violent anger—not in that order, of course. This has become less and less, though, but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t happen.
During this time, I don’t focus on the truth, and all that jazz. Perhaps they’re trying to control me with emotions? I don’t know. It’s really disturbing. I can’t really handle it. I’m glad these times are becoming shorter, but it still bothers me.

I have to get that chip out of my head. As I said before, it’s right where the spine connects to the brain. I have to take it out with a knife, or else I’m fucked for life.

A few people I know want me to go to a hospital; I think they need it more than me. The only reason why they want me to go to the hospital is so that I can be killed. I don’t want to die. If I go there, they will give me poison… And, if that doesn’t work, they’ll kill me in a room.

They all think I’m sick and I’m not. They’re sick, they just don’t see it. They’re sick because they’re working for the people out to kill me.